That darn bike!
All the time I did triathlon when I was younger I hated cycling. It was something that broke up my two loves, swimming and running. Now I find myself already bailing on rides, what gives?
I think the issue is, I am tired of training alone. Most of the training I have done in my life has been alone. Day in and day out I pounded the pavement, by myself, for all my long runs and off day runs. Even while I was in university and living with runners I still ran alone for my long runs, especially during the summer and once in grad school.
Moving out to Vancouver meant that I knew not a single soul who could run with me for my long runs. I run too fast for most people's comfort. With cycling speed is not the issue. Lack of speed is the issue. I fall between the two types of cycling groups you will find in the city. I'm faster and more competitive than the recreational groups while too slow for the cyclist groups. I have a few friends who ride however getting anyone to commit to anything is difficult. I continue to ride alone.
At one point in my life it was my dream to meet a gay man who could either swim open water, cycle or run. In my pipe dream we would meet at a race and he would fall in love with me just as quickly as I would fall in love with him. I cannot think of a more amazing thing than to be able to do what I love most with the person I love most. The dream has mostly died (to be honest with my dating history the dream of a boyfriend has died too) though there is a flicker of a hope. Of course there is no evidence for this hope but one must keep dreaming.
Tonight was my first short course swim workout in a really long time. Backstroke and freestyle and lots of kick were on the menu tonight. If my cycling is less than inspired I can report I am really enjoying being in the water and swimming with my club. It is nice to be in the water with old friends and lots of gays!