I went running yesterday and my foot is not sore today.
I am preparing to get ready to try and get into running again. I am tying up some loose ends and preparing a life schedule that will enable me to train and have a life outside of sport. This might be difficult.
I am a bit of a yes man. I am naturally curious and very active. If someone suggests something I am prone to say 'can I come too?' or 'can I help?' I like to help and thus I have a list of commitments that limit my ability to actually participate in a lot of things that I find really fun. This winter I am wanting to do a lot of things and especially ski! So I have a plan.
Now that my foot is healing and I am not living in chronic pain I have motivation to train again. I must also acknowledge that my experiment to be more mainstream gay has not enabled me to find a boyfriend. Thus I am content that I tried to do something that I do not necessarily love and will go back to something that I actually love. I am motivated to run again.
I am motivated to run with a few provisions. I want to ski. I will not start training until ski season is over. I do not want to be injured so I will train with a reduced schedule. I plan to run an interval workout, a tempo run and a long run every week. All other run training will be on an adhoc basis. I want to keep some contact with the homos and continue to go out and explore non mainstream gay venues and parties. I will not use running as an excuse not to socialize and make opportunities to meet eligible men. I do not want to be super skinny anymore. I will continue to lift weights and eat. I also plan on sticking to racing no longer than 10 km in the next year. I may try some track this summer if I am in the mood!
For the next year I want to maintain my running ability without killing myself trying to do it. I need a break but I still want to be fast. I do not want to be a plodder. I will continue to maintain my fitness by cross training. I may try swimming with the Vancouver Open Water Swim Association this summer as well.
I have a few plans in my mind of what I want my running to look like in the next few years. With the Canadian Cross Country Championships coming to Vancouver for the next few years I have a keen interest in keeping fit so to participate. If I have a good summer I may change my training plans in the fall to gain the necessary fitness to compete at Nationals. Although I do not particularly enjoy racing cross country there is a certain nostalgia that keeps me coming back to the cold grueling racing. In the distant future I will run a marathon. Marathon scares the crap out of me and I will need a very strong support network, i.e. boyfriend, to help me through this monster. I do not think it is something I can do on my own, like most of my training. The thought of arriving alone in my dark and cold apartment after a long training day is 100 percent depressing. I will need someone to help me clean, cook and who will take care of me when I am on the verge of crumbling under the mileage.
I have a plan.