Autumn has arrived in Vancouver with cool evenings and rainy days. Normally this marks the beginning of cross country season, this year marks the beginning of weight season.
I have started my weight program and I can report muscle fatigue and pain. It is a different experience to be in the weight room not exhausted from a hard long run. I think I may actually like doing weights. I will definitely like getting bigger and muscular. I am still struggling with eating though. I am forcing myself to eat more although it is a struggle.
The transition from runner to whatever I am becoming is much easier than I thought it would be. Every once and a while I am struck with a motivation to run. Then I get distracted and a couple days later I will get a faint urge again. I have run only once in the last week (I am losing track) and I am fine with that. I am starting to lose the felling of having to run. I still have the need to move and exercise though. What is going on? I loved running so much and now I am totally indifferent to this sport that has given me more than I can put into words.
My current indifference may be due to a few reasons, mainly total burnout. Secondly I have been able to pack my time with activities that I have never done because of running. For instance, I went out twice this weekend and was not in bed until the wee hours of the morning on Sunday. Instead of a long run on Sunday I slept in, drank coffee and watched the world go by. I spent the day napping and treating myself. It was a wonderful day of rest and relaxation. I feel a sense of freedom from my usual constraints and it is wonderful.
Another contributing factor to my contentment with my current situation may be dating. I am dating a man. We have been dating for a few weeks and it is nice. I figure I have bitched about being single so much that I should also report when things are good. Things are good.
What I do not want to happen is finding a obsessive need to fill the void that running has left. I have caught myself wondering how I managed to find the time to complete all the many activities I had in the past few years. Now that I have extra time I have packed even more into my schedule. I am going to shows, movies, boat cruises, bars/clubs, concerts and events like they are going out of style. If I am not careful I am going to burn myself out of life too!
I think this is kind of an aimless post, I have no direction to go. Has this become my life? My priorities may just be a bit up in the air right now as I am possibly attempting to find a new balance between my driven and focused personality and the plethora of exciting recreational opportunities that are here in the city.
On the exciting news front I only have 4 days until vacation! Although I have an education day smack in the middle of vacation I am sure it will still be fun. I am looking to take a short road trip and do a lot of weights and swimming and resting and cleaning!
I may have lied a bit. I was thinking about national cross country championships. They are in Vancouver next year. Just saying.