I have been derailed from my training due to injury and illness.
In the last 2 weeks I may have run 40 miles in total. I have had a hamstring injury and now I am starting to recover from a nasty chest cold. The chest cold has really taken a chunk out of my training and I even missed a day of work yesterday. I have missed 3 long runs and a few long tempos. My actual running workouts have been of a great quality but the inconsistency of training is a troubling issue. My marathon training has become a train wreck.
The thing is, as I get better from my cold I am feeling refreshed with a bit of extra energy. A couple of people commented today that I am even looking refreshed after a day of sleeping. Most importantly I do not feel exhausted and it does not hurt to walk. With 6ish weeks of training to go I am feeling quite ambivalent to pick up where I left my training in an effort to be able to race on May 2nd. I feel like I have lost my fitness and more importantly my desire to go to the 'place' I need to go to run fast. I like having energy and time to socialize and having a balanced life is quite refreshing. At this point I am wondering if the marathon is really for me.
I want to ski. I want to go out with friends. I want to go dancing. I want to enjoy running for the pure pleasure of running. I want to feel normal with energy to engage in conversation for longer then 10 minutes. I want to be my cheerful self without stressing about mileage and the doom of the marathon.
My friend who was staying with me during the Olympics asked me a question as I anxiously prepared to go for my long run. "Do you even like running?" I love running. I love running fast. Fast. I do not like running slow. I do not like long runs or long tempos. I do not like training for the marathon. I am not a marathoner. I do not think I want to run a marathon anymore.
What does this mean? I am going skiing on Saturday and I may even try and go out on Saturday night if I have the energy.
Hopefully my cold will be healed!
No more mileage!